My Fears

I really do not not get scared much being the kind of person that analyses everything I come across. When I find myself in situations that may seem to be a bother, I don't even think about them much, I just pick one of the first two ideas that pops in my head and I'm good to go. I love my self so much, the way I do things and the way I think. When I do some things, they are so odd to people but hey! I am Lisa not your clone. People expect so much from others when they do little themselves.

Well, back to the real issue. Fears!!! We all are afraid of at least one thing, I am afraid of more than one. Sometimes these things keep me awake at night, or make me act crazy in the dark especially after a horror movie. Jesus, I hate those things, they just don't leave your head for a very long time! I don't know about you but even if you give me a million dollars I don't think I'd want to watch one...*coughs*. Apart from being scared after watching a horror movie, there are other things I'm scared of.

I am so much scared of disappointments; either being disappointed or being a disappointment to people i care about especially to my Parents. When I look or think about them and how far they've come, I'm filled with love, respect and admiration for them. I'm also very proud of them. The feeling I get when I'm disappointed at someone is so bad because I know deep down, things are never the same with the person no matter the cause. Yea, i always say to myself, "if one can disappoint me for something very little...what's the difference if it's something huge?". I also try no to be bias because I disappoint people too, I feel worse knowing the way I treat disappointments.

But a very good friend told me not to entirely trust people because there are ones who will always disappoint.

I talked about uncertainty in one of my previous post. I hate it because I cannot see what will happen next. Well, I am sometimes afraid of it. But it doesn't stop me from taking risks, I just worry about it. I understand that one cannot be certain about how life will turn out, even with the perfect plan, things can go wrong. I just live the moments knowing I can try to do the right things and hope for better days.

And now the strangest, I am scared of marriage. I know some people would be like why? Is she ok? Well, It's the truth. In the ancient times, marriage was perceived to be holy and an unbreakable agreement, although I do not agree with the feminine aspect of their laws, but people rarely divorce or separate. But you see people separating for very little offences and worse, getting a divorce these days. People change so much with time and it is so scary knowing that the person you are with is not the same person you got married to. Yes, change happens but not so much that it would wreck a union as strong as MARRIAGE!.
I did a survey and most people say the reason it did not work is because they married the wrong people and I ask, "were you blindfolded before marriage?", Most of them answered, "Yes, with love". It is so disappointing.

I realise fear is a choice. So I've chosen to overcome these fears because it is a prison. It limits you from doing things you want to do, you can only stare from a distance wondering what it would be like if you actually do it. And I don't want to stare, It is living a half life!

I am human, I have fears. But with God, I need not be afraid according to His Word.
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind, 2 Timothy  1:7.

Inspirational Quote: Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death.