Finding Your Center

For a long time, I have been unable to do some certain things. I thought it was normal I'll get back to myself in no time. But i noticed i was becoming worse, I'd start things and not finish them, procrastinate some of them I'm yet to start. I was becoming disorganised!!!
After a couple of weeks, I still hadn't noticed what was happening to me until just recently I realised I had been lost. I was empty. It felt okay at first but when I began to put some pieces together, I realised I had lost my center.

Losing something is so easy, the hard thing is getting it back. And one worse thing is when you don't know exactly what's missing. Getting it back is one very difficult task because you don't know where to start from, you just know something's missing and you need to find it.

What is one's center? It is a place where essence is drawn from. When I realised what exactly I lost, i was stuck. No one understood what was wrong but then I set out to fix myself. I was not very determined at first but I began to reflect on my past self, I did a little comparison on my present and past self and then I got serious. I began seeking help anonymously from folks, I'd spend hours searching but I found nothing, I'd stay awake all night surfing the net for answers, I tried everything I could to be myself again, but I was just stuck! I would sometimes cry because I didn't feel right inside. I panicked.

But then, the answer was right in front of me the whole time! I just needed to pay attention.
Sometimes we loose ourselves for a short or long time. The timing doesn't matter, all that matters is getting ourselves back. It could be very trying, but with focus, internal awareness, attention and good decisions it'll be an episode we get to reflect on in no time. 

Here's something to learn: At the centre of your being you have the answer; you know who you are and you know what you want.